My Life Revolves Around My Purse

Yes its true it totally does. Here are the things I have in there (for something random and kinda fun):

• lipchap
• gum
• pencil and sharpener
• 3 pens
• kleenex
• feminine product
• lighter? (must have jacked it from a smoker at work hehe)
• phone
• lotion
• grocery list
• wallet (of course)
• biology notes...which I plan on adding to in a few minutes
• calculator (?)
• nail polish
• mascara and eyeliner and compact
• comb
• Mini bottle of water

I think that's it.

First Midterm...Down

I am happy to report I made it through my first part of the first midterm of this semester with no injuries so far. It was actually pretty easy I don't know why I was worried at all...well actually I wasn't really worried as of monday at all for some reason. I was pretty laid back about the whole thing which is completely unlike me. Going into it I was like meh if I fail I fail...bad BAD attitude!!! Honestly though..is it really worth the stress and worrying? My answer : NO. I have more important things to worry about although I wouldn't be able to point them out at the moment.
So interesting discovery...I must have applied for 2 credit cards somehow because another one just came in the mail. Hmm..I guess Ill be making another trip to the bank here someday soon. Maybe after biology today? I dont really feel like going because I walked all the way home I might as well just read the textbook since that's where she gets all her lectures from... Urrgh I don't feel like being here right now!. I actually don't know where I feel like being which is a little odd...
I am feeling a little "up in the air" actually. Work is work..Ive made like almost $1000 in tips...prolly like $500 in paychecks haha...so that's pretty sweet. Travel fund I think so!. Keep this up and I will be debt free after my 8 more years of school..hopefully! Im wishing I was in some psychology courses this semester so I feel like what Im doing is actually relevant to my college career choice...
Getting back to the "up in the air" feeling..Im extremly laid back about like...everything. Everything and anything in my life I am laid back about. I don't think there is such thing as stress at the moment. Maybe Ive just come to a point in my life where Im like hey..what happens happens? Hahaha okay Im gonna go slam my door (roommate needs some communication) and then write in my ACTUAL journal...lmao. Peace

Worst Night of my Life

Tonight...was HORRIBLE. When I first got to work I could tell this was not going to be good. I wasn't ready or something. My section filled up so fast I couldnt get to everyone. It was too much. I did ask for help from another waitress and that lasted about 5 minutes...I should have thought earlier to ask a manager because this was too much for me. I screwed up everyones order..didn't get around to my tables quick enough..it wasnt good. So least to say I ended up in tears half way through the night. I just cracked and couldn't do it anymore. I was getting in serious shit from the manager, people weren't complaining but they weren't very happy, I was honestly going as fast as my feet could carry me and was doing as much as best ass I could. I was definetly giving a 100% effort. So after bawling in the freezing cold outside for about 30 minutes I got a talk from the one manager (who I am not so sure I like so much half the time) and then got back into things. Thankgod for some of the other waitresses and bar tenders. They totally saved me. They covered my section, got me back on my feet, and helped me at the drop of the hat. It was awesome. After that I had an awesome night! I had cool customers and after a few drinks compliments from the manager noone likes, I was laid back and doing my job better than I had ever done it before. Also my manager (the one I absolutely LOVE)totally rearranged the schedual so I could have next weekend off to see my boyfriend whos coming down to see me. She is seriously the best. I especially have the sweetest waitress too helping me out. Not only did she cover for me tonight, she is covering all my shifts next weekend! I totally gained alot of respect for her and if she is ever in need of a shift or two off I would be more than happy to cover her even if I need to make some accomodations.
So that was my night of hell at work. Hopefully that's the worst it will ever be....lets see if tomorrow I can wake up to go running and burn off the last of the upset steam. I can only learn from this experience as well. Hopefully it helps me as a server. Also...I am getting very good at giving fake phone numbers! :P

Blind Eye

Okay so other than pink eye like two years ago this is probably the second possible stupid thing I could have done to my eyes....however it could be alot worse it just makes me kind of squirmish thinking about it. this past weekend I noticed that I couldn't see out of my left eye! Things were blurry even with glasses on or contacts in..so I was a little freaked out. I somehow found an optometrist and made an appointment to see him about it. Turns out the long nights I have been working are taking its toll. My contacts have been drier than usual, and aparently when I took them out the other night I took a chunk of skin off the top of my left eye. Hmm cool... So that's why my eye stung for like 2 hours that night... So anyways no contacts for a week and I have to put these eye drops in every few hours to help with the healing process. Hopefully that doesn't take too long because Im thinking I don't enjoy this much. Is this an excuse for new frames? So to all you who wear glasses...I never thought this was possible, but pretty please make sure you keep your contacts moist so you dont pull skin off the top of your eye!!! OucH!

Also Happy Birthday Greetings to Stefanie!! Dude You're OLD!

Moonlight Sonata

Oh Beethoven...this one is my favorite by far. I first heard a version of it while watching the Corpse Bride, and got my Dad who plays the piano amazingly well (my idol I wish I would have stuck with it!!) to find it for me and start teaching me this song. I absolutely love this song. It's so haunting and slow and beautiful I could never get tired of listening to it. Hopefully someday I'll learn the whole song!

Fish

Oh goodness...taking away your toaster oven? Come on. You can do better than that. I left you in the bathroom with no toilet paper to wipe your ass with and you take away the toaster oven? Why don't you take your knives away instead. I used your dishes to hold dirty fish water while I was cleaning Rome's tank. Bet you didn't know that one did you? Don't worry if you were gonna get sick from it you would have already... it was a long time ago now. So don't ever clean, you never did anyways, don't leave your stuff in the bathroom, you never did that either, and to make it a clean slate why don't you not talk to me either...OH wait you never did that in the first place. Good luck...see where it gets you in life. You get what you give. I gave and then finally had enough. No more going out of my way for you thát's for sure.

Dr. Pratt

I have hopefully made up my mind for the last time. I am dropping my Chem course and am transferring into Psychology at the UofA. I hate that class and I hate this semester and there is no way that I am going to do four YEARS of this! So it's off to something new for me. It just FELT right when I picked up the forms to organize my courses. Of course this first year is almost a complete write off now...Like..maybe 4 courses apply to my degree now? But you know what...I wouldn't be happy doing what I was setting myself up to do. Now it is alot more schooling (about 7 including Ph.D who knows if Ill get that far..) but I think Dr. Pratt seems like a pretty cool idea. And even then Id only be 26 when I graduate which is alot better than some 26 year olds I know now who are JUST making up their minds about what they are going to do now. So...let's see how this goes. Im gonna do some mad summer classes to catch up so Maybe I wont have to be in school for as long as that? Urrgh it's so hard to choose something that you think you are going to be completely happy doing for the rest of your life. Fortunately though I think I may have decided?